If i had one chance. i want to go back to the time i was in primary 6. before i took my PSLE. And before everything went wrong. if i had got into a better school. i wouldnt be stuck in this situation. if i could have salvage the problem before it happened. it would be a better place. if i could meet my true love once and for all. i wont get hurt time and again. if i was lucky enough to buy anything on earth. i wouldnt have to stress about everything. if only i could stand in the rain and cry. and think that no one is looking. if only i could make a confession. telling you i loved you. if only i was honest enough. to tell you i loved you all along. if only i could control my emotions from flowing out. i would have became me. Really. life`s been boring. everything happened so fast. sometimes you would just feel left behind by time. and when everyone`s moving forward, you`re standing there alone. sometimes u may feel that there`s no one there for you. and when you think that everything is
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belonging.
its amazing how people can change people. allowing them to become something they didnt used to be. and when people change, they no longer remembers who their friends used to be. Allow me to introduce myself. I am. Diana. im a victim of the pure word "loner" & i`m still finding myself. maybe. My life swirls around dimentions of square shaped walls. I had friends of many different types. They all had thousands of different cliques. But frankly. I dont belong. I still havnt found my true friend. The one that would be by my side. Even when everything in my world went wrong. My other half. or rather. Many people believed. There is another you in the other end of the world. It dont have to be looks, it meant the personality. I wanted to find my half. But what am i doing. Laying and rotting in my room all day long. Waiting for a miracle to happen? Nope. I have decided. I need to isolate from the city. From everything. That would cause me harm time and again. I need to be myself.
Fullness.
BTW THIS IS FUCKING FUNNY. I LAUGHED TILL I DIED http://forums.playpark.net/showthread.php?t=34824 Equivocacy`s thread. Comics (; Hehe. Life`s so full. So full. My mind`s so full. My hearts so empty. Why cant god let us find our true love one once and for all? Whats with the players circle. and the fling happenings. Be it virtual and reality. Still, love exist. Have you ever heard of people who met online and got married? I have. Van and Phil are happily married with a child. Bless them. They met online. Got together online. Dated online. Then decided to meet real life. Then got married. Then got a baby. Aint these all a fairy tale come true? So are online relationships reliable? i`ve tried myself. Raymond. Jeremy. They all failed. For now. im confused. I dont know who i loved. why are you always there to console me when im down. my mind is full. full of scorpions.
A trip to the zoo with Equivocacy members. This song is composed and sung by FIFI <3 It would sound really nice if the right equipment was used and if he recorded it in the studio. It`s home made! Nice. :) Can anyone melt me with their voice? Or sincerity. ...Oh baby. write me a song and i swear i`ll be urs. ;D
I`m sorry
The reason im like that these few days. Its because i`ve been thinking. how unfair i am. to tie u down to me. To be someone i throw my attitude at. To vent my anger at. To make you my temper bag. To make you feel bad all the time. i`m not a good friend. Nor a good girl friend. I really dont want to hurt you. see-ing you cry all the time. When you shed a tear i can feel my heart melting. but if its the best for us, im willing to let my heart die. i wont ever want to see you again. not because i hated you. maybe it`s because. we`re just not right. and if i see you. i think i`ll want you back. so its best not to meet . for i know... i`ll hurt you. thinking about you being so sad when you`re with me. i dont want you to be sad with me. i dont you to suffer. thats why i decided. the long time decided decision. that i`ll let go. for all the lies i told you, couldnt cover the whole world. i guess it`s best for us. for i dont want you to get hurt. i`m really sorry. im so sorry. please forgive m
PICS FROM SENTOSAAA
;D peeeweeee. Diana. loves. Everyone. Sentosa was great (; mmm... Their all random. Have fun looking. ;D White dress = After bathe. Black dress = Before sentosa. Green top = DURING BEACHING TIME.
Urh. I SERIOUSLY, CANNOT STAND, UGLY PEOPLE. Oh, not as in. Oh you look fugging ugly. Out , kinda thing. Its like. Their ugly, but they act like as though they are the pretty ladies on earth. *F11 pukes until faint. Ugly bitches like them ought to die a horrible death. Being ugly is OKAY. but being ugly and photoshopping ur pictures like there`s no tomorrow gives me the creeps. Fancy them living in this world, Oh ok i know what u are thinking. I`M JEALOUS BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO PHOTOSHOP. who gives a fuck about photoshop. i dont need it. and i dont think HUMANS need it. so what i`ve got pimples. i`m ready to flaunt it. SO, CONCLUSION IS, ALL UGLY PEOPLE SHOULD TOTALLY DIE. Happy day happy day (; Prom was great. EVERYONE`S BEAUTIFUL.
Heres the big topic. PROM NIGHT. I went to my hair dresser. So i waited for 1 hr. They did a bad job on my hair. But alot of ppl say nice. So yeah. Simplicity owns? Maybe. Anyway. we were 1hr late for the freaking prom. We took the MRT becoz the road BLOCK. Cab uncle ask us take mrt. sian. Then we sorta like Reached there at 8, and everyone was there. Pretty and all! So choosing the people to represent the prom queen and king. Shahrul was like asking me to go join with him. But i shy X.X so i said dunwan... So felina went up instead :) AND THEY WON PROM KING AND QUEEEN. 4e1 rocks please. :) Pics pics pics. Lots of em. But i`ve got "RED EYE" in those pics. Due to insufficient black colour in the pupils. Thats because my eye colour is not black =.= WHICH IS A BOTHER. because i have to find a way to remove them. Aw... Met lots lots lots of pretty and handsome people.. After that whole prom thing. We went to club at plush. Oh it was very very very fun! Danced all night long. Met
Prom
Prom`s here. Prom`s here Prom`s here. YIPEEEEE. x3 everything ready~ Aw, i dunno hw to make up. later gonna go over meet rachel. HEEEE. ilu girl. Anyways. I love melvintaybaihua. i love love love him. i`ll always remember wads in our ring. x3 diana x3 melvin. 10.07 (; Gonna go over rachel there, then sz coming over meet us, take cab go. Choot choot! Hehxz. Hope its a fun day,. (;
Well,
ooo this is quite sweet, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0T1KDYn2Q7o&feature=related Shopping today! was so so so pissed off because cant get the dress i wanted. so continued to walk walk... wanna walk duno to where le suddenly saw one dress, so went in take a look... woah! match wo leh! HAPPY LIKE SHYT. X3 YAY. so i had the moood for shopping AGAIN. just now was pretty moody, so yeah. But when i got this mood to shop. someone doesnt want to anymore. he seem abit tired n bored... so forget it. he went home. ... went to meet YS at tiong bahru. Shopped abit. but bought ALOT ALOT ALOT. thanks YS dage x3 had many shopping bags.. heavy, but lucky he help me hold laaa. it was a short shopping trip coz he live near me maaa.. so i bought all my stuff we all went home. dont know wad to do if u wernt there YS! SURE HEAVY LAAA. thanks. oh what a happpy day
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Lovelove x3 Oh, new updates on friendster. Weets. I`m looking forward to prom babeh! btw ; side track. LOL @ RACHELAWMEILING. i was browsing through friendster`s testimonials. SEE HOW THEY TYPE 4 YEARS BACK. HAHA ... Rachel, My sec 1 bestie, now too! "hell0s !! l0ng time n0 write testi fer y0u lia0x. h0w yah nehs? fine mahs? n0w-a-days usually see y0uu lehs. dun see osh0 cann0t sia. l0ls. x) kae lahs. y0uu take care ahs. see yah tml in sch0ol ! =D" HAHA. and gerlyn. SEC 2 BESTIE. "HeiYa...! .. ermx.. wad to say abt u?!? she's cutE although she always says she's not but she IS... PrettY? ya can say so.. when'S shE's arD.. u wOnt feEl bOred aT all..cUz she Will mAKe u Lauf LikE hell.. lolx... hmmx... sHe's cRaZy oVer someBody calleD... bEtta Dun SaY.. laTa i geT kilLed bY hEr... DeN.. sHe Dun reallY liKe sPOrts lEhx... tHe oPpOsIte of mE.. eh.. Nth mucH 2 wriTe liaO... kk taKkAir... BuiX...!!!!" WTFS?! LMAO. Hoping to find my testi for them last ti
You`ll be in my heart
Jackie and Diana o.o Alfred and Diana. Diana and Jolene. Melvin and Diana. Lmao. Poor bf ;D
Reflection
Here here, i know i havnt really blogged much these days. :) Today was fairly an average day. Tmr gonna go cck again. MAFAN :( Ooooo~ ;D I love this song actually. i watched the show like 10 yrs ago. but the song stays in my head until recently i searched the song. ;D;D Live strong. Love it.
Whole new world.
I`m sorry my boy. I`m sorry my love. I`m sorry my baby. I`m sorry my boyfriend. I`m sorry my dear. I`m sorry my sweetie. I`m sorry my darling. I`m sorry my sweetheart. I`m sorry my hubby. I`m sorry I`m sorry I`m sorry. Will my sorries ever mend you from what i did? I`m sorry for being such a bad girlfriend. To make you get hurt. I`m sorry for the things i said to make you cry. I dont want to hear u cry. I hurt when u do. I dont want you to be sad. I will feel sad the same way too. I dont want you to suffer. I want you to smile. I dont want to quarrel. I want this to last. I dont want to shout. Because i know you hate to. Bf, i know it`s my fault. i should not have got angry over minor reasons. i already promised not to speak too much hokkien. And i promise to not say the word S*** ;D I`ve never played ur feelings. I love you and you have to know. Muacks :) PS: i was really SHOCKED + SURPRISED that you sent me the ring. It was very unexpected! Muacks bf! x3 Love Melvin Tay Bai Hua He`s
I up-ed 3 lvls in maple today! 101 to 104 :) Nonsense, 2 more lvls to max dispel. Oh dear, my 2x is running but i dont have time to train la. After lvled to 104, 50% Went fm to wait for bf. But he and Toh afk. Waited for bout an hour. Got very fedup so i smsed him. He called la, but jack answered the phone. I seriously thought i sms wrong lol! Then damn blur. But owells, told jack i lvled too! haha! Then hang up, bf phone called again. Say he on loud speaker just now. Urh... i so blur. ~_~ Too much training . Went to mix and match clothes in maple, I want the lollipop ^^ Hahs. Woke up about 1.30pm. Went maple for abit then logoff just to blog and stuff bah. Will go online around 5 :( i hope. Hmmmm. Elvis just called, He asked if i wanna meet him near our place to study . Well, maybe i`ll just pop by to have dinner with him. Alright, toodles all. Will add on a picture soon, When i`m back to my comp ;D Hee.
X) Babi gila~ Bio is okay, Easier than expected. Oh god =.= i think i wrote wrong for my osmosis one. T_T nvm nvm. Haha. Went airport today to send aunt off. Took lots of pics. All wear nice nice. Will post when developed. :D HEE Went to bunk met lots of ppl la. Well, met my dangao happy liao ;X who cares bout the rest. Then after tt went home with elvis. take bus zzz i nva take before! haha! elvis de stop earlier than mine de. but when elvis de stop pass le, but he didnt get down... elvis alight at the busstop near my hse. then we got down tgt, he take bus back again to his stop, xie xie elvis. thats so sweet :)
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To my dan gao :) I believe we will be honest to each other, bout how we feel, to make this relationship work. My friends are not more important than you, and i care for you more than them. Sometimes maybe i just sided "reasons" I dont love hubby aka jeremy anymore. Or any of my ex boyfriends. You are not useless, And i believe you will work hard together with me, To hold my hand and continue this journey. Trust me will ya? i nag at you for the benefits of you. lets continue this journey :) muacks. ILU. x3
Well, its time to move on.
Peeesh. Terrible terrible. Math was a killer today. going for chi laterrrr... For math. I didnt do like half the paper/? T_T I just hope for a miracle to happen then. Nothing much really happened. In fact, NOTHING happened. I`m drifting away from my audition friends. sad but true. life`s so unpredictable. when i was with them i thought i would be like, with that clique till the end. *F7 then i joined my maple one. everything changed la. *F3F3F3 new friends new environment. its a plus point. but speaking of turning into someone in that clique. its zero. *F4 maybe i just need more time, to trust and understand everyone. i`m a failure as a partner. i cant even make him happy. neither can i know what he was thinking. i dont even think im important to him. *rolls eye oh what joy. my step brother is coming out soooooon. :) loves. thats something to be happy about. peehee grats randy lvl 70. Lovelovelove! grats dk asshole :) super adorable piece of shit ;X ROFL. *F9
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Math was horrible. Sigh? ;( Sometimes , trying so hard to keep everything perfect makes thing worst. Do you want to be treated like that? Or would you prefer to keep a distance. I dont know how you feel, Because you never told me. If i had 3 wishes, i would wish for a thousand more.
Hmmm
Gahh. Morning now. Shag shag shag. Yesterday went to celebrate linnie and zizu`s belated birthday dinner. Steamboat at bugis, really. 22 bucks i think its not worth it! but once in awhile its fine. Shagggggggggggg... hey guys im lvl 101 in maple man. i lvled up 1 lvl in 2 years! (okay coming 2 years. christmas period 2 yrs le) lvl 6 dispel haha x3 pro priest please. bf will only get unbanned on fri. whats going on in esperance. even as a new member, it just dont feel right. with random people in it and weird fights going on secretly. like thanks but no thanks... waiting for piggy bf to wake up. i dont want him to smoke so much! bad for his health and everything. i`ll just continue waiting. waiting for him to stop. alright all. longest post in like these few weeks. tatas~ x3 Big Butt Cake
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Hmm. Went to school for practical science. So unprepared. :( Combined bio/chem my chem salt answer : Zinc Carbonate. Tell me its right please. Its an okay paper thou. Woootata i`ll miss u my dear rachel when we graduate.
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We were strangers Starting out on a journey Never dreaming what we'd have to go through Now here we are And I'm suddenly standing At the beginning with you No one told me I was going to find you Unexpected, what you did to my heart When I lost hope You were there to remind me This is the start And life is a road and I want to keep going Love is a river I want to keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever Wonderful journey I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end I want to be standing at the beginning with you We were strangers On a crazy adventure Never dreaming how our dreams would come true Now here we stand Unafraid of the future At the beginning with you And life is a road and I want to keep going Love is a river I want to keep flowing Life is a road, now and forever Wonderful journey I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end I want to be standing at th
PPGZ & RRBZ (;
PPG Japanese Anime (; I only took the episodes with RRBZ in it. Afterall dont u find them soooo matching? HEHEHEHE About Episode 1: Just introducing the 3 main girls of the show, and how they became PPGZ :) Episode 1 Part 1 Episode 1 Part 2 Episode 1 Part 3 -- About Episode 20: The birth of the RRBZ, RowdyRuffBoys :) Episode 20 Part 1 Episode 20 Part 2 Episode 20 Part 3 -- About Episode 42: RRBZ are back :) To irritate PPGZ rofl. Episode 42 Part 1 Episode 42 Part 2 Episode 42 Part 3 Episode 42 Part 4
Heartbreak lullaby... In the still of the night, I can almost feel you lying next to me, Like it used to be, And its hard to let go, When there's always something there reminding me, How things could be, I've tried to get you off my mind, I've tried to play my part, But everytime I close my eyes, You're still inside my heart, Why can't I laugh? Why must I cry? Everytime we say good-bye, Why does it rain, Here in my heart, Everyday that we're apart, Why can't it be, Just you and me, What will it take to make you see, These are the words, To my Heartbreak Lullaby, Like the stars in the sky, You still keep on shining down you're light on me, But out of reach, And I know that in time, You will come back to your senses, See the signs, And change your mind, I try to look the other way, And keep my heart on hold, But everytime I'm close to you, I lose my self-control, Why can't I laugh? Why must I cry? Everytime we say good-bye, Why does it rain, Here
hiiex . l0ngg tyyme diint bl0gg ler w0rs... kekekexzxzx . okay, whatever diana. ask me if i blog everyday, yes i do. i just dont post it. save it as draft and get over everything. hang out with maple clique more often now. audition buds. im sorry. i just dont play delph anymore. 46 cleric. (quit.) im sorry jolene we just wont feel the same anymore. i love you still...
So random
PFFT. digging out my old memories :)) When it first came out hee :)) less than 5 ppl in maple have it at that time! Lol. I think i`m the only who have it ;x (besides ryan, who was practically inactive) Erm. 3rd job was not out yet man =.= see my thorns. worth millions last time ;X Ex-guild. Once a mafer always a mafer :) lmao. HEEEE x333333333
Lol
Hi blog i'm back. It's been 2 days since i last blogged. Met jolene , Dillon , Ck on weds. Me and jolene bought the same pair of slippers! I love darling! Haha! Went to do abit of shopping. Then, bunk again. Lol. Went home. . . And thats the night i call him sweetie. >.< lol. Anyway. On thurs i was having fever. So i didnt take my social studies and chem paper. Okay. Whatever Lmao. On friday . Had my mt and geo paper . It was okay i hope. Meet up with sweetie , darling jolene and Ck. We went to bunk. Saw tou. Sena. Didi. Mei. Alot more i guess. Lmao. Saw icy! Yay! That day was tou's and cloudie's 3rd month! Grats. XD At around 7.30 everyone was bored and stuff. So we 4 plus shihan went to shop at orchard. Looked at the flipflops at num. Decided to get the same. Waiting for next week new arrival. Haha. . . We made member that day too! Saturday. Met up the usual peeps. Went to eat at ljs with jolene darling and Ck. Later on joined by little. Darling and me saw this
Whatever
Whatever this is Lmao. I made alot more but i guess these are the lucky ones that manage to fit into the screen. Will post the picture of the next batch soon. I was bored in practical exams. So i took some to draw on. There it is. Look for your name. For those who cant find your name. Wait next post. Waha. Okay. I'm feeling tired. Just came back home.
Peep.
Here's an article in the malay news paper today bout our class during teachers day. Omfg they go put the pic my face look so ccb. Roar. Anyways . Today is the last day of pe. Played captains ball. It was very fun as usual. So fun that i didnt even know i cut my finger while playing. Oooo . Violent game. But enjoyable. Darling having her papers today! Good luck lene! I'm having mine tomorrow. Omtian. Good luck to everyone having o's . Hmm. ~~ Sometimes i wonder if i know what i want.