Diana

You stabbed me in the heart each time with every broken promise Look at those flowers. Lovely right? They could only be ordered online here. http://www.mellano.com/index.html Overseas sia. basket. zzz. Here are more pictures. http://justinspace.com/blog/?p=257 To order, contact your local florist to order from Mellano and co... the 1st link i gave u all.. Guys, good luck with your flowers. Back to daily life... Woke up at 3pm+ this afternoon, slacked at home the whole day. im so bored! someone ask me out la ok? :( im practically going out with my baobei dar everyday. but im happy... :) with him! i`ve really got nothing to blog today. i hope dar`s hand get well soon. did i forget to mention how many cuts he cut...? 57.... counted, and cried, and got over it. im on the phone with him right now. my heart feels numb... dont know why...

how i wish sch has started. this is funny shit. Hear this uncle.. LOL. ROFL.... dig so long...inside still got sai. Most of all, i wish i could be with dar. now and forever.!

28th. Friday. Dar and i had a tiff. Its a bad one thou. I think i was sorta like having abit of a mood swing so when he called me i was like. "zomo?" He stayed silent. Walan sia. I talking to him he stay silent. HOW CAN!. then i shouted. "ZO SHEN MO?!" He finally replied me with a nasty tone. "ZOMO!" walan. he sounded damn attitude can. After like a few mins or arguement on attitude problems. He said "Aiya wait call you back, bye" THEN HE KUP THE PHONE. #!@$!@$@!#! I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE KUP PHONES LA! so i smsed him. "Aiya, dun need call back. Forever also no need call back." then he replied damn attitude also. "Dun call jiu dun call loh" Wa piang. i dunno to be angry or sad sia. So i very tulan, went to eat some things to keep my mind off tt idiot!. So 30mins later i replied his sms saying smth like "Fine. I dont understand, why ur ex give u attitude all the time, but u still so nice to her, then i give u attitude ONCE,

H A P P Y 2 N D M O N T H D A R whatever happens, im going to hold you tight. right here in my arms and ur heart close to mine. when you`re sad i`ll be your clown. when you`re happy i`ll laugh with you. when you`re angry i`ll let you bully. when you`re bored i`ll be there. when you need somemore to listen to you, i`ll listen. when you need someone to love, i`ll give my all. when you think you cant cope with ur studies, i`ll learn your subjects. when you need someone to cry on, i`ll lend you my shoulder, my heart, my soul. i`m willing to do all these, Not because its what a gf have to do, its because i love you. okay, back to what happened thses few days! 24th. Monday I woke up early in the morning. Lay out the stuff i need in the morning. Started rolling the dough. I swear i`ve never done this before ok. Made the dough FLAT. I just acted like as if im a professional la. I manage to do 3 trays of "heart" shaped cookies 1 tray consisted of like, 35 cookies. In the end, i on

Why did you let me go? - its you, not me. Can I win you back? - no, never. I am very much happy with you back then. - Too bad. I still love you. - It doesnt matter anymore. When did we last talk? - July 2007. Can you go with me? - For fuck? Hey,can i give you/ask for a ride? - No thanks. Were you able to move on? - DUH! happily moved on! I regret losing you. - Thats your problem. I cannot keep my promise to you. - I dont care. My parents do not like you. - What has it got to do with your parents? You have changed. - Yeah, for the better. so i wont find another jerk like you.

Dar asked me. Would you fall back in love with dareius? when he comes back from his studies? I thought for that question for abit . then shakes my dead. He most prob would forgot about me and our memories. Further more i bet he would have met many other better girls. Much more mature then i was back then. I believe i was a childish girl back then 1 year back. When i thought love is about me and you. its nonsense, really. as i said, its the PAST. even if he comes back 2 years later. he would most prob be with another girl already. and maybe, living happily with his new gf. so what position do i have to interfere with his business. & i seriously cannot be bothered. Then he asked me again. What if you fall in love with him when you happen to see him again? I thought for awhile and gave a stupid face. "Wont la" i said Recalling how we broke up and the tears we teared. Its better to know that the person left you loving you. than to know that the person left you , loving you no

i am so pissed. 1stly, i hate asking my dad for allowance. because whenever i ask him for allowance, he would KPKB! Saying i should get a job and stop being so useless as in, go out and stuff like that everyday. like HELLO? I have NO SCHOOL, yet. How the fuck you want me to go school?! when i have NO SCHOOL? You trying to act funny? Funny as it seems. My dad is never nice to the family. Okay, not never, he was once nice. Till he and mom`s relationship turned seriously sour and everything started to change. Life`s hard for mom, really. But sometimes. she just dont understand whats going. I bet everyone`s family is much better than mine. i bet it cant be worst having your father screaming and nagging at you whenever you take allowance from them. I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE. it sucks being the 1st child. it sucks being a girl. AND IT SUCKS HAVING HIM AS A DAD. A JERK. A FREAK. A LOSER FOR LIFE. i swear, that once i finish my studies in ITE/POLY, I`ll leave you, behind. I wont drop a te

Went swimming with dar and yijie x) Lala. Will you take my hand and walk down this long road with me ?

x) Met dar :) Now at yijie hse, going swimming. AND PLUS, eat KFC. You made me believe that i could almost do anything. No matter what you`re going through, in my heart you`ll always be, forever baby. :) I love you.

sayonara. ;( its hard. really...

On the 16th, Laopa came to pick me up around 4am. Went over to cake`s chalet :) Drank abit, or rather 2 sips. Damn, mel found out i drank 2 sips whenjeff and bao wanted me to drink 1 cup. EH BUTS ITS STRONG OK. ;[ anyways. here are pictures. Lmao. this maple thingy was made long long ago. Thought it sort of like suited and similar to cake`s state that day, everyone wanna jio him drink. oh i had a clear video of what randy was talking. haha. i think its quite clear =x anyway. Next day went out with yijie angeline and dar. :) Celebrate yijie`s birthday. Went to KTV :) Sang abit la. omg they heard my horrible voice. anyway here are some pics on tt day. tonned at yijie`s hse. pics of them gaying. :) :) when u ask me do i love u but. do u remember why i waled on water for u? ilu my baby boy. Your Flirt Quotient You are 60% Flirt Are You a Flirtatious Woman? this is fucking not true. LOL You Are a Friendly Flirt! You are quite the flirt, but you don't flirt with just anyone. And you hard

it`s 12.37am. 16th march. 1stly, happy birthday pranta laogong. i hope you could grow up and stop being so lame. besides that, you owe me a lollipop and a 999 teddys. LOL. 2ndly, i`m having mixed feelings about going to his chalet. laopa aka jack just called me 1 min ago. asking me if im going and he offered to pick me up. so nice of him. :) i told him i`ll pass. But he added that he would talk to me and all durnig the chalet :) haha thank you laopa. but situation has changed. we`re no longer even friends. not even hi or bye. how to even attend? dun attend , like didnt give face. attend, like so weird. thats what i told laopa. laopa told me h`ll feel weird too T.T and ask me to tag along. :) say nva see me for some time aso. haha.... HOW. dar not here for me. T_T sadded shit. alright. guess i`ll go. gotta prepare. Daddy`s gonna pick me up later. Eh, not daddy. i meant laopa! :) ;) I love junjie. now and forever. hehe.

Okay. i was talking to samantha on msn and she was like. woo she`s so prettay. Then she showed me a link to click on. FRIENDSTER. LOL. i totally lol-ed. Coz she happened to be one of my friends. But to samantha its private profile. I was like. hell fuck. having a bunch of hair covering your stupid face doesnt mean you`re pretty. I browsed through her photos and i realise her face is like. LOLMAO. so i saved one of her photos (oops) and fucking showed it to sammy. "holy shit are you seriouz" LOL. that shows what make up can fucknig do to a person. im gonna pick it up. real soooon. LOL. someone care to teach me?

SATISFIED? Obviously this shows that i didnt ask jude to fucking marry me in the 1st place. THANKS ;)

Darling, Happy 17th birthday. ;) <3 Jolene. I`m blogging on the 14th March about 11th March-12March! Clubbing at zouk turns out to be a freaky nightmare i swear. Okay, there are quite a couple of familliar faces among the crowd. But really! THE Q IS FREAKING LONG. i was there around 11.30 so you could expect a fucking long wait. Yeah, i didnt sorta like lined up, instead, i waited for the Q to disappear. 1AM. i got in (LIKE WTH RIGHT) Jo darling decided not to enter so she went to drink by the lakeside i think. She hurt her foot >.< color="#ff0000">♥ Junjie Oops, no pictures. LOLS. :P Phone flat

I look like the lead actress thingy, 2 other actors behind. ha. Fucked up face. Take 2. o.o Yijie`s fat hand ilu dar... i think...

Weeee. I havnt blog in ages. but oh wells. here goes one. I cant wait for school to fucking start. Yip yip hooray! I guess when school stats i have to stick to andy ;[ LOL!~@ Anyway happy birthday to those ass kicking march babies. Andy, Melvin, Yijie, Jarnah, Raven airen, Sze zhuang! , Guo harn, Candy, Andrew kor. Thats all i can remember. Oh wells! :)))

Dar, I ♥ U. Now , & Forever.

Just woke up. 10.35am now. (Actually i woke up like 10am) Im glad work made me tired and sleep FULL TIME. Instead of waking up halfway through the night and cant get back to sleep. 1st shot in the morning. when dar just arrived. me and dar. Random time at night. We look dam shag. lool. MEEEEEEEE. when im bored. O.o Pictures rock. love dar love dar love dar.

Lala. :) Today`s the 1st day of March. Happy birthday in advance to all those whose birthday falls on this month. Sian. I jus came back from meeting sz. Before that i went dar hse. Around 9. Actually going out with xy at 10+ Then she cancel. Then meeting kelly at 4+ instead. So during 10+ to 3+ Dar on his bed sleeping. I walking here and there, lie on bed, hug dar,walk around again. Disturb kaixin since she`s in the same room as us. At 3pm. Dar fell asleep. I call him wake up he aso dun care. zzz. hahas..So i left. Zao zi dao. Meet other ppl ... Denise wanted to meet me at 2. ;[[[ Shd have went with u girl. Where`s my devoted heart ? I love you my dar. I swear i really love you now. Now. & forever.