a moment of silence
yes i admit i feel sad.
but what can i do?
whats mine is mine.
love is so painful.
For him;
feelings are lost. gone and away.
freedom is the reason. girls are too.
i care for you in my heart, not in my face.
i`ll let you be. for my heart is dead.
i will never care and wont ask again.
even if i wanted to. or share your problems.
but i know, i no longer have the right to.
you now approached your friends instead of me
all your problems , your worries, your future
you never leak a thing to me.
for you said im far too young for you.
but i`ve never thought of that.
because that is what we called love.
all i ever wanted was to be with you.
wanted to share secrets with you , spend time with you
but its time to say goodbye,
for your love for me has died.
alas, i still love you , my friend.
your freedom is granted and its time to run wild.
but have you thought of it alone,
how the girl that still loved you have felt.
the someone who spent her time on you.
trying to make you smile. with her kiss and hugs.
when you had fun together and make silly jokes.
although she had a bad temper ,
a silly smile and a jealous heart.
but have you ever thought why so.
the answer`s because she loved you so.
She never objected you of chatting with your friends.
Once in a while or someone she know.
But have you ever spared a thought for her,
when you chatted on the net everyday,
message others during work, anytime,
when you told her not to before.
The content of your messages hurt her alot.
For you have showed interest in others
with long messages and teasing lines.
exicted about talking to your friend
rather than your "baby"
the someone who spent her months with you.
you told me you would be a better friend.
but what i wanted was you to be mine.
not just any friend.
although she has never been important in your life.
but you are in hers. ever.
and now she still see`s you everyday in pain.
although she forced herself to let go.
its hard to not see each other.
as your family members became part of her life too.
theres gwen to teach her and mom to guide her.
she had to go your place all the time.
to finish gwens homework and having her tuitions.
when she sees you she feel so hurt she wanted to cry.
as to see someone that she loved,
but will never be hers. as she know,
he wanted to stay friends. and never change that.
She knows she cant bother about you anymore.
but shes also worried you became bad.
smoking and gambling. like you used to.
she retricts you from all this
its not because she`s afraid of cancer or loans.
But instead she wanted you to have a brighter future.
maybe she cared too much.
that made you feel inhuman.
for you said she had never treated you like a man.
shes sorry for what she had done,
to made your life so miserable and sad.
she never stopped crying when she wrote this confession.
as she placed her heart whole heartedly this few months.
her heart fade as she wrote this .
as she knows once she finish this ,
she will force herself not to care about you,
not to think of you like she always do.
ask you anything or think that you still loved her.
for you have never felt a thing for her.
right from the start of september 2006.
Lol i already gave up after 31st aug`s night :)
HOHOHO!!!
but what can i do?
whats mine is mine.
love is so painful.
For him;
feelings are lost. gone and away.
freedom is the reason. girls are too.
i care for you in my heart, not in my face.
i`ll let you be. for my heart is dead.
i will never care and wont ask again.
even if i wanted to. or share your problems.
but i know, i no longer have the right to.
you now approached your friends instead of me
all your problems , your worries, your future
you never leak a thing to me.
for you said im far too young for you.
but i`ve never thought of that.
because that is what we called love.
all i ever wanted was to be with you.
wanted to share secrets with you , spend time with you
but its time to say goodbye,
for your love for me has died.
alas, i still love you , my friend.
your freedom is granted and its time to run wild.
but have you thought of it alone,
how the girl that still loved you have felt.
the someone who spent her time on you.
trying to make you smile. with her kiss and hugs.
when you had fun together and make silly jokes.
although she had a bad temper ,
a silly smile and a jealous heart.
but have you ever thought why so.
the answer`s because she loved you so.
She never objected you of chatting with your friends.
Once in a while or someone she know.
But have you ever spared a thought for her,
when you chatted on the net everyday,
message others during work, anytime,
when you told her not to before.
The content of your messages hurt her alot.
For you have showed interest in others
with long messages and teasing lines.
exicted about talking to your friend
rather than your "baby"
the someone who spent her months with you.
you told me you would be a better friend.
but what i wanted was you to be mine.
not just any friend.
although she has never been important in your life.
but you are in hers. ever.
and now she still see`s you everyday in pain.
although she forced herself to let go.
its hard to not see each other.
as your family members became part of her life too.
theres gwen to teach her and mom to guide her.
she had to go your place all the time.
to finish gwens homework and having her tuitions.
when she sees you she feel so hurt she wanted to cry.
as to see someone that she loved,
but will never be hers. as she know,
he wanted to stay friends. and never change that.
She knows she cant bother about you anymore.
but shes also worried you became bad.
smoking and gambling. like you used to.
she retricts you from all this
its not because she`s afraid of cancer or loans.
But instead she wanted you to have a brighter future.
maybe she cared too much.
that made you feel inhuman.
for you said she had never treated you like a man.
shes sorry for what she had done,
to made your life so miserable and sad.
she never stopped crying when she wrote this confession.
as she placed her heart whole heartedly this few months.
her heart fade as she wrote this .
as she knows once she finish this ,
she will force herself not to care about you,
not to think of you like she always do.
ask you anything or think that you still loved her.
for you have never felt a thing for her.
right from the start of september 2006.
Lol i already gave up after 31st aug`s night :)
HOHOHO!!!
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